For the month of April, I will be blogging every day (minus every Sunday but the 1st) about Interstitial Cystitis for The A to Z Blogging Challenge. Each day I will talk about a subject dealing with IC and my life living with it.
Today is P and I'm talking about Pushing Through the pain.
When it comes to pushing through in regards to chronic illness, I have one piece of advice: Don't.
Learning to listen to your body and not over do it is one of the hardest lessons I'm still struggling to learn. As i'm writing this, it's 7:30am and I just called my former boss to tell her I couldn't help out today. It took me two hours to convince myself to do that. She was in a bind. A cook quit this past weekend, then his cousin and friend who also worked for her decided they were no longer going to work there either. That left two cooks and one needed days off to take her mother down to Petoskey for doctor appointments. Meaning, she only had one cook, so she gave me a call, and naturally, I said yes I would help.
Everyone knew the reason I quit was because of my back, and were conscious of the fact. I didn't do heavy lifting, and I paid attention to how I felt. Still, two days working had me awake at 5:30am and in pain. I ignored it for an hour, then began to ask myself, "Should I go work a shift that will have me running on my feet for eight hours?"
I really struggled with that answer for two reasons. One: I didn't want to let people down. I told my former boss if she was in a bind to call me. I would help out. (And I did. I worked two days.) Two: I felt lazy. Was it really that bad? Both days I did work caused pain, but I had pushed through them. I could push through this, right? But also, both days didn't have a short walk down the hallway making me grimace.
In the end, I realized I had to listen to my body. It was telling me to to stop. Pushing through was a stupid idea. I feel bad for not being able to help out, but I know everyone involved will understand. We all know that if I push through and that results in worse damage, then the next time they need help, I'll have no choice but to say no.
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